APRIL 7, 2016
Today Julia and I found the first Sweetpea of the year. That is always a pretty big deal around here! And today it brought back a lot of memories.
I remember being with Dad when I was little and finding the first ones of that year! Being the first to take them home to mom was a very special honor! I remember riding our bikes up the gravel road and out through the pasture with my cousin and sister and picking 3 ice cream buckets Full! One for Grandma and one for each of our moms. I remember one Sunday morning picking sweetpeas and taking them to put on Grandma’s grave. I remember picking handful after handful and taking them to Grandpa and hearing him say “oh my goodness”! And today Julia and I picked a small handful and proudly showed them to the rest of the family as those special memories flashed through my mind. That first, sweet smell of Spring happened today and today…another memory was made.
I Missed You Grandpa
Today....
I missed you, Grandpa.
I missed helping you into the house for dinner.
Today. I missed telling you that we got a new calf! And seeing how excited you were to hear that it was doing well!
Today... I missed you getting to the table and looking into my eyes, squeezing my hand and saying “Happy Birthday! I sure love you!”
Today. I missed You praying… “We Thank You Dear Lord…”
I missed you saying… “I wasn’t able to get you anything"…and then “Here” and handing me a five dollar bill.
Today… I missed having you at Bible Study.
I missed you driving your golf cart.
I missed your big hands and your big mittens.
Today. I missed the sparkle in your eyes.
Today…....I had tears in my eyes…because I missed You.
Today… I rejoiced for you.
I think about you everyday, Grandpa. To be honest…I don’t know if I have let myself accept the fact that you are not really here anymore. When I think about that day in June... I feel numb. I don’t really like going to your house. It is lonely. It is not right. Everything that I do makes me think of you. I fall asleep thinking about you. I dream about you.
I miss your cookies… I miss your laugh… I miss you singing…
I miss you so much!!!
Thank You for everything Grandpa. You taught me more then you will ever know. And I will forever…cherish the memories. “Have I told you lately that I love you?” ..."well… I’m telling you now."
Left picture- 1996. Right- November 25, 2014